28th (2)
The last blog post accidentally got deleted, and I couldn’t find it again which sucks because I had so much to say there! Felt like a moment. So I guess I’ll write a new one even if I don’t have the same feelings now as I did when I wrote the last one. That's the thing. You start writing something when something hits you or else you won't have much to say. At least me. Well that's not true, but the specific kind of moments I'm thinking of. I’ll leave this blog for a bit now. I've made up my mind on that. It feels better to not have any challenges put on yourself like how much you should post for a month etc. I'm not good with that.
I’ll go downstairs and make my noodle recipe soon. I actually don’t have much to say now. I think I’ll take some time off of social media and focus on school. Again. Not just uni but other things to. Not like a month's break but just a few days or a week. I ordered some new books yesterday which I don’t know if it was a good or bad thing for my money but I decided it was time for some new ones. There’s like so much space to fill in a bookshelf in this house so I never have to worry about buying too many books for other reasons. More is better. I just need to become better at focusing when I read.
I feel a little sad on and off these days but it’s totally fixable. What needs to happen is more variation in my life and more focus on goals and planning etc. I know there are ways to become more present and not live with my head in the clouds all the time. It’s what I do. All the time.
I went for a great walk today and then had coffee with mom and grandma before I went home to an online lecture. I really do need more variation in my life but I didn’t want any before, for a long time and now that I do it’s just a new thing.
There’s nothing to watch on Netflix but I do have Middlemarch by George Eliot to read and that’s really wonderful.
I want to write something longer but I wrote almost half a Google docs page before (so that it can check misspellings and grammar) but now I am tired and I feel like I drank too much tea like an hour ago and now my stomach hurts. I think a banana could help. I’ll see soon.
Lots of love!